Lately, I’ve been listening a lot to Hana Pestle songs. I discovered her in my Twilight saga obsession phase, I don’t remember how but I listened to her song “Need” on YouTube, she wanted it to be on the New Moon movie soundtrack but didn’t get it eventually.
The song “The Red Death Ball” makes me think of the novel “Carrie” by Stephen King.
When I was a teenager, I read a lot of his books and loved this one, I love the power he gives to women, they’re abused by men but are still strong and full of will to get the negativity out of their lives.
Hana Pestle reminds me a lot of Evanescence, a group that I use to listen everyday, all day long. In 2003. She’s produced by Ben Moody, the guy who founded Evanescence with the lead singer Amy Lee… so no coincidence I guess.
It’s the kind of songs I was litterally drowning into. But today, even if I still like them, I don’t let myself being immerged in the sadness it brings. I aknowledge myself for this huge step I made.
It’s easy to let the Past come and swallow you, your emotions take control and it’s the end… But you can decide the Past is the Past, you can’t change it so stop to focus on it. It does influence the person you are now, but you still have the power to become who you really want to be.