As I told you recently, time allowed me to deal with both sides of me which constantly battled. Maybe these both faces of myself have a deeper explanation, I’ll figure this out later.
I know (and I’m sure you know it too) that no one is absolutely white nor black. Whereas something unhealthy is underlying behind this facade (opinion strictly subjective).
Some days, I just feel overwhelmed under negative feelings, under doubt. Today, I know that it’s temporary. I don’t fight as I used to in the past: I know it would be vain; I know it’s there, I feel it, I live it, and I just wait for it to leave me, because I know it’s ephemeral.
In introspect, I think that the essential face, nonetheless for me, is acceptation. When this step is crossed, tests are still painful but more easily comprehended.
However, it’s very difficult to accept.
Acceptance doesn’t mean fate or defeat. No No and triple No !
It’s a really important and strong lesson in Buddhism: Acceptance is one of the key to the end of suffering (I cut it grossly).
Duality is part of Life, every single thing has its opposite.
What would be God without Satan ? ;)
Would we appreciate the warmth of the Sun without the chill of Night ?
We, Humans, are not an exception, aren’t we ?