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A few days ago, I had the urge to scribble in my journal. Simple images that I had in mind, generally just drew with a pencil…

And then, she appeared… From where ? no idea ! But she wanted to be on my paper, so I agreed and let her out.

I was intimately convinced that I wasn’t able to draw a Whale… and finally, even if it’s far from perfection (i never was good to represent things as they really are in life); but we can see it’s a Whale and not a Dolphin (for example).

The sky is not painted purposely. No hidden reason, I just didn’t want to. As simple as that.

I love bringing words to my images, most of the time it’s just a title, a sentence that came to my mind while I was drawing, a part of a song…

When I finished it, I searched in the book Animal Speak, (book known thanks to Leah, who spoke about it a while ago), in order to know what Ted Andrews, the author, was saying about this sea mammal.

And then, obviously, it was the chock ! Whale reprends Creation (and a few other things such as concealment).

I let the page that faces the drawing blank, to write my thoughts about the Whale, later. Finally, I wrote down some quotes from the book, because I want to remember it and it speaks to me. Especially the question “Are you keeping everything in the inside and afraid to let it out ?” hmm no comment.

The author asks some good questions. Do I just mimick what others have already done, or do I “build upon it in new and dynamique ways” ?

He just points out what I hide. Oops !

If you are interested in Totem Animals, their symbols etc. I just can suggest you to buy or borrow this book.

So now, I’ll work on my fear to let out what’s inside of me. My creativity has to be pulled out concretely, and not to be remaining in my head. Not to please people, but because it’s a part of my life, of who I am and for my mental sanity it’s better if I stop to restrain it as if it’s a shame.

As I told you recently, time allowed me to deal with both sides of me which constantly battled. Maybe these both faces of myself have a deeper explanation, I’ll figure this out later.

I know (and I’m sure you know it too) that no one is absolutely white nor black. Whereas something unhealthy is underlying behind this facade (opinion strictly subjective).

Some days, I just feel overwhelmed under negative feelings, under doubt. Today, I know that it’s temporary. I don’t fight as I used to in the past: I know it would be vain; I know it’s there, I feel it, I live it, and I just wait for it to leave me, because I know it’s ephemeral.

In introspect, I think that the essential face, nonetheless for me, is acceptation. When this step is crossed, tests are still painful but more easily comprehended.
However, it’s very difficult to accept.

Acceptance doesn’t mean fate or defeat.  No No and triple No !

It’s a really important and strong lesson in Buddhism: Acceptance is one of the key to the end of suffering (I cut it grossly).

Duality is part of Life, every single thing has its opposite.
What would be God without Satan ? 😉
Would we appreciate the warmth of the Sun without the chill of Night ?

We, Humans, are not an exception, aren’t we ?

Today, it’s not really a wish but Jamie asks us: What do you want to tell the World ?

It’s rushing in my head… I realize that finally I have a lot to say to the World (more than I thought). From the simplest things to more complicated ones.

Currently, I would particulary like to say to people: don’t worry about what others say and think about you because no one knows you better than you do. Follow your heart, go where ever it wants you to go; even if it seems weird, surreal, totally crazy. So what ?

Follow Your Heart, Art Journal June 2009

Listening to its heart is something more difficult that it seems, because we have to identify its particular voice. This little voice that is hidden behind Reason, Fear, Desire and all the other voices that are more or less there depending on the moment.

But when you have learned to recognize her, don’t be affraid anymore: follow her anywhere shed guides you…

As a lot of people, I’m in love with the gothico-strange and very rich Universe of Tim Burton. I like it for several different reasons, and I’m planning to do a little “trip” in his movies soon (have to talk about it with Cheridoo).

His next movie (which is much anticipated by fans) is Alice in Wonderland, a little bit reviewed.

The trailer is finally out !! Here it is:

We’ll be able to appreciate the performance of two of his favorite actors: Johnny Depp & Helena Boham Carter. I love them both, especially when they are directed by Tim Burton. They are so good in this Universe…

Today it’s wednesday, which means it’s Wishcasting Wednesday. Yeaaaah !

Inspired by Jamie; today, she asks us what we want to invite in our lives.

This time, it was easy for me to define it: Friendship. True One.

Because I feel lonely, even if indeed I always was a lonely girl, more or less. I have friends, but I need people near me, geographycally speaking I mean.

Some girlfriend(s) to hang out with, call, have fun, chat, play…. I really have the bad impression of being an E.T., even if I love my cocoon with my lovely husband and our two Trollettes; I miss Friendship.

So I let go my ideals, my more or less conscious demands, I gain self-confidence (no, I don’t always bother people) and I invite Friendship in my life.
Hoping she won’t be too late…