A few days ago, I had the urge to scribble in my journal. Simple images that I had in mind, generally just drew with a pencil…
And then, she appeared… From where ? no idea ! But she wanted to be on my paper, so I agreed and let her out.
I was intimately convinced that I wasn’t able to draw a Whale… and finally, even if it’s far from perfection (i never was good to represent things as they really are in life); but we can see it’s a Whale and not a Dolphin (for example).
The sky is not painted purposely. No hidden reason, I just didn’t want to. As simple as that.
I love bringing words to my images, most of the time it’s just a title, a sentence that came to my mind while I was drawing, a part of a song…
When I finished it, I searched in the book Animal Speak, (book known thanks to Leah, who spoke about it a while ago), in order to know what Ted Andrews, the author, was saying about this sea mammal.
And then, obviously, it was the chock ! Whale reprends Creation (and a few other things such as concealment).
I let the page that faces the drawing blank, to write my thoughts about the Whale, later. Finally, I wrote down some quotes from the book, because I want to remember it and it speaks to me. Especially the question “Are you keeping everything in the inside and afraid to let it out ?” hmm no comment.
The author asks some good questions. Do I just mimick what others have already done, or do I “build upon it in new and dynamique ways” ?
He just points out what I hide. Oops !
If you are interested in Totem Animals, their symbols etc. I just can suggest you to buy or borrow this book.
So now, I’ll work on my fear to let out what’s inside of me. My creativity has to be pulled out concretely, and not to be remaining in my head. Not to please people, but because it’s a part of my life, of who I am and for my mental sanity it’s better if I stop to restrain it as if it’s a shame.