Thank you, Thank you, Thank you Jamie !
I’ll tell you a little story…
Once upon a time, there was a woman. She really wanted to carry a new soul in her belly, but the Universe decided she has to face several obstacles. The doctors announced her that she had serious issues in her ovaries, she was operated, she took a lot of medicine, and finally, she was told that her belly will remain empty forever… It was so tough, that she never told about how she felt about that.
She met someone. She fell in love. I was told he was in love too. They had a lot of fun together, and he knew that she’ll be an empty belly so they never really paid attention to protect themself against the venue of a new little soul… but this soul chose this particular woman to be her mother, and came whereas she was not hoped anymore. What a surprise ! It causes a lot of changes, good… and less good.
This little grain, as you may have guessed, it was me.
During my second pregnancy, I “worked” with the most amazing midwife ever. Really opened to spiritual things… always there for my worries, during the pregnancy, and after I gave birth. Even months later. She helped me with some issues I had, she does acupressure, and things I don’t know the name (she takes my pulse but “sees” and feels things; I wish I could learn to do the same). She made me go back to the time I was just cells in my mum uterus… I felt and saw how it was… and realized that it determined who I am, now, at nearly 24 years old.
And it explains the name of that blog: “Pulsion de Vie” (Pulsion of Life, in english). Because now, I know that when I was just the association of two cells, I hesitated during a long time: should I return from where I come, or should I fight and stay and experience life with whatever it has to offer ?
SO… I want to acknoledge myself for fighting against that little voice that told me that I’d be better somewhere else, I acknowledge myself for not chosing facility (whether when I was a foetus, or when I was a pre-teenager). I chose life, and I am so grateful for that today.
I never gave up, I am still there. And I know I have a lot of things to do here on Earth, a lot of people to help, to listen to, to guide…
Things start to become clearer regarding my professional career (tsss I still have problem with that name… “career”).