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Gratitude Friday is a weekly ritual I started in order to focus on all the small and big positive things that happened during my week. I invite you to join me, you’ll see how much being thankful can change your life. If you want to know more about it, read my introduction post.

Hello !

This week was generally a good one. I hope that despite the low moments, focusing on all the small moments of happiness will help you to level up your energy level.

This week, I am thankful for the morning spent catching up with my dear friend Stéphanie. Being myself, talking about stuff that make my heart vibrate feels like a blessing. I can’t wait for her to come back (but she hasn’t leave the country yet, I have a month to enjoy her before she travels the world) !

Thank you for the “21 secrets” workshop that will begin soon.

Thank you for the discussions with Nessa.

I am grateful for having Alice around, because she stays true to herself no matter what.

Thank you to my parents in law because i’ll be able to buy a gift from their part for my 25th birthday.

I am more than grateful for the signs and answers received this week. It allows me to see that I am on the good path and it confirms my deep believes.

Thank you for this spot I won in Magpie Girl’s current online workshop “Power Stories”, it’s awesome.

Thank you for the opportunities.

Thank you for the tough moments and harsh feelings I experience, they all teach me a lot about life, about me.

Signs are everywhere if you decide to open yourself in receiving them.

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I started to write my Morning Pages again, even if I usually don’t write them first thing in the morning (so how should I call these ? I should find it another name…) These 3 pages of free writing, without taking care of the meaning, of the form, of the potential mistakes helps me a lot to pull out thoughts off my head. And sometimes I cheat a little because I re-read despite the fact that Julia Cameron advises not to do so before a certain amount of time (7 weeks ? I have to check). I really do huge discoveries about myself, it brings stuff into focus; this exercice is really what I need currently and I’m glad I started it again (and don’t blame myself anymore when I miss a day).

My Morning Pages paired with today’s Connie‘s blogpost just made KABOOOOOOOOOOM in my mind.

Indeed, this week I noticed a pattern of thinking: why do I not share more my Art Journal pages ? And I finally understood why ! Here is partly what I wrote earlier this morning (it was in French so I translate):

My style is special because I am someone peculiar. I have my paradoxes. I am made of Darkness and of Light. Today, light predominates but it was not like this a few years ago; and sometimes Darkness takes over again. I drown into it, I’m like in a bubble filled with water, I move over the course of its flow but I stay grounded in the bottom.  Until the day the bubble bursts as if nothing happened, and so I see the Light again. It’s how I work. For a long time I fought and wanted to go against cuntercurrent of my life, chasing the Spleen and wanting absolutely to be somebody else. But it was vain because it’s not the best. It was like I was fighting against windmill during a major tempest…  I am affraid to let people see this dark side of  me, whereas it now coexist nearly perfectly with my luminous side; they’re in me side by side.

I longly hesitated before sharing these words with you but felt like it was something I had to do.

A lot of my pages are… weird. I love them mucho but because of the fear of being judged, of people thinking “she should be in a mental institute, she’s totally depressed”, I kept them all for myself and my very close circle. It’s now time for me to share who I am with the World, and not who I think people would like me to be. I don’t deny my paradoxes and my past anymore.

So I’ll try to overcome this fear and to share more of who I am via my art journal pages 🙂

Again. Okay I know, it should have been blogged last Monday but…. better late than never !

1. Zen Charm bracelet, by The Zen Muse, 2. DSCF0180, 3. THINE and THOU, TOGETHER, 4. 09_03_10, 5. The Art collector , 6. Tree Owl Necklace, by The Zen Muse, 7. you can fly, 8. Awake, 9. IMG_2120_Frm3-10J_Love_Web

Colourful Softness. Trees, Zen, Love.

Looking for these deep emotions living in me, I sort of everything, I enjoy every moment and every experience. Center myself to discover me and share better.

I also feel the strange urge to adorn my body with what vibrate in me. I’m currently working on my next tattoo; the ideas are getting more precise. I don’t know if I’ll get it for my birthday (September 20th) or after, the date is not that important even if turning 25 is kind of huge for me; I have some jewelery cravings too.

I know myself more and more better and it does not feel as bad as what I thought…

Today, Jamie is also asking us (aka Wishcasters) what does wishcasting brings in our life. So I’ll begin by answering this week’s prompt, and then I’ll answer about what do I wishcast the more often I can.

Today’s question is What do you wish for less of ?
And my answer was instantaneous: I wish for less clutter in my life (and by consequence, in my mind).

I was really sad when I talked to my husband about Bindu Wiles’ new project that will begin next week, called “the Shed project“. The goal is to get rid of about 1/4 of your stuff, and shed 10 pounds, in two months. To build a community around this will to let go, and to clear our space and our mind.
My husband disagreed in me trying to do so. I understand completely is point of view “It makes me sick to throw away 1/4 of things we bought, for what we gave money for. Why did we bought this if it’s to throw it away afterwards ?!!!?”. BUT he’s the first person to qualify my stuff as “your mess” (which upsets me… a lot). So what’s the point ?! It’s cluttering the house but because I paid for it, I can’t get rid of it ? It makes me sad too, to think that it costes money and that it’s just sitting there in a corner or whatever.

When we moved from France, we sold lots of our things, and we gave some, and of course, a lot goes directly to the trash. Clothes, cooking stuff, toys, books, decorations… people were happy to get them for less than what it would have costed “new”, and we were happy not to have to bring them in Canada. Sometimes it was painful, because we attach importance to these material things. But it’s only material, physical. We shouldn’t care that much.

I am a compulsive art supply buyer. But i’m healing myself. yes I do. And it’s the same with food: I am always affraid we don’t have enough. I’m planning to sort all my supply, make some piles “use it a lot” “use it sometimes” “bought because it was trendy but I never use it”. I may sell some, and giveaway the rest. Maybe people will have some use of it and it will make them happy (I love happy peoples).
Last week-end, we sorted our daughters’ dresser, and have a big bag to give to the nearest thrift store. It feels good.
I wanted to get rid of some of my cookbooks (cooking is my first passion, then painting/creating came in my life) but Cheridoo is not that okay with it so I keep them all (about… 150 books only about cooking).

I feel the urge to clear my space. It’s calling me for weeks now, but everytime i want to do so, an obstacle comes on my way…

On another note, I wish for less pounds in my body, less food intake. I don’t want to talk much about it, but here too it’s time to make some changes in my alimentation, and I’m beginning soon to work out again.

Sooooo in honour of her new big project (a 52-prompt Wishcasting Journal !!!!!!!!!), Jamie is asking to whom want to answer “What Wishcasting has meant to you“.
For me, Wishcasting allows me to take time to think on a particular subject/area of my life. And to introspect, listening inside for answers. Some are very easy to find and comes as soon as I read the prompt, some are very difficult and need some time to dig deeper in me. Most of the time, Jamie’s week prompt is in perfect timing with what i experience, and it’s an amazement each time, as if she was in my Soul without knowing it.
Putting concrete words on feelings makes SUCH a difference. It’s like an open letter to the Universe. And I experienced several time the love and support we all put in others’ wishes is also something that makes a different, like a huge worldwide tribe of dreamers and wishers, united to change their life. The sentence “as X wishes for himself/herself, so I wish for himself/herself also” may sound cheesy, but trust me: it DOES make a difference.
I feel very thankful to know Jamie, and she makes me wanna jump on a plane to Toronto and hug her “for real”. She inspires me, pushes me to go deeper and deeper, she’s a positive bomb. And so are her projects such as Wishcasting Wednesday.

Gratitude Friday is a weekly ritual I started in order to focus on all the small and big positive things that happened during my week. I invite you to join me, you’ll see how much being thankful can change your life. If you want to know more about it, read my introduction post.

September is already here… Can you believe it ? SEPTEMBER !!!!! My birth month, the month where Summer becomes Fall, the back-to-school month…

This week, I am thankful for the two weeks when my brother-in-law was there with us.

I am thankful for the messages received from the Universe, they were a little bit more explicit (better late than never, trust me !).

I am thankful for the sky, I watch it several times each day, and I love witnessing the clouds dances.

I am thankful for my friend Aegiale.

I am thankful for what I created this week. I am only halfway in one of the project currently in progress, I don’t see the end yet, but I love it so far.

I am thankful for the talks with my friend Alice. And for the ones with my friends Cocotte. And Paola. And Babymelaw.

I am thankful for the dinner invitation in a japanese restaurant we enjoy.

I am thankful for our hiking at Grouse Mountain, even if we only went to the 1/4 mark. My girls never complain and really liked it.

I am thankful for the Sunday in Whistler with Nathalie and Jérôme.

I am so so thankful for the cuddling with my daughters.

I am thankful because today is payday.

I am thankful for the birthday present my husband is planning me, even if I have to draw it and I have too much idea for not much abilities.

I have a musical bonus for you this week. I always listen to music, especially when working on my computer. I put a list of songs, that i often modify, hit the random option, and just enjoy 🙂 And while I was writing this Gratitude Friday, the song “Thank You” by the amazing Mozella came… So as I believe in signs, I share it with you:

And what about you ? tell me for what you are feeling Gratitude this week. Yes, even if you were in pain, even if the weather was not what you wanted, there must be at least one or two things that brought you some joy 🙂

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