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I dedicate this post to my BIG Sister Lisa Wilson 😉 She’ll know why.

I used to be all Black. No White, no Grey, no Colours. Just Black. It was easier to hide, to fit in that way.
And then I flipped.

For some times, I colored my world with plenty of flashy colours. So was my art. So it is still today. It is like I put on canvas and paper what I would like my Universe to look like.
I thought I’ve found myself. But I realized this week that I didn’t. Because all these bright colours are not me more than pure Black alone.

Where am I going ?

Who Am I, deep down the bones ?

I am still exploring. And this is why I love my art journal so much, it is the best tool for me to dig, to find, to discover. Because it is something that really matters to me. Even if I know it is the work of an entire life, I am only 25 and life is still ahead of me (knocking on wood).

I currently need softness. More simplicity. And I got this by doing a page in my art journal. Obviously.

Gratitude Friday is a weekly ritual I started in order to focus on all the small and big positive things that happened during my week. I invite you to join me, you’ll see how much being thankful can change your life. If you want to know more about it, read my introduction post.

Good morning !

This is this day of the week again, when we think of  these things that put a smile on our pretty face and when we chase away the blackish thoughts swirling around. Concentrating on what the beautiful positive moments the Universe showers us with is why I like friday so much.

This week was very trying and I feel exhausted, however..:

• Thank you for the sun shining today. Wakin up with sunrays peaking through the blinds just announced me that today will be a great one. Days are getting longer, spring is coming and I really need this.
• My perseverance while editing my latest video was a good thing. It was a pain in the *** to do because of computer issues and took me ten times more than it should have. But I like the result !
• I am thankful for the first order I received, and honoured. A customed journal was sent yesterday for its new home in New Jersey and then Bordeaux.
• My friend Anu’s presence despite her own life, she is there for me everyday and helps me a lot. She is priceless in my daily life.
• My Husband is always by my side, listening even when the words do not come out of my mouth. He listens and deals with my silence. And my tears.
• Writing this blogposts makes my heart sings.
• I am waiting for new books today, and what would I be without my books ?
• Grenouille is at a circus school for the day, with the afterschool service -pedagogic day so they don’t have school-. She will have fun for sure !
• Koala is a lot into learning how to write lately. So I try to follow and help her the best I can.
• My mom is at day 3 without smoking, I am very very proud. I know she can quit definitely.

Oh and a picture for the road… Yeasterday I spent time doing and glueing small “patches” for my Glimmer Mists and Lindy Stamp Gang products caps, so it is way easier to pick a colour. My fingers are still rainbow-y from it 😉

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On Valentine’s day was the first edition of Connie‘s Art Journal Love Day.

This is a HUGE party celebrating our love for our Art Journal.

I have been art journaling for 2 years 1/2 now. Only. Like it’s been forever, like a part of me I cant get rid of.

My art journal and I are in love, he forgives me the long time no see and greets me with open arms everytime I come back to him, with a smile and a ” I missed you dear !”.

To make it fun, she is having a giganormous giveaway on her blog, where people are giving aways stuff and sharing about their art journals. Find more about it here: Art journal love day party.

Here is my participation.

I really really like how it turned how. I love using india ink and my nib pen; it reminds me the long pages I used to write with one when I was a kid (and my hand full of ink that wouldn’t go away).
This is a continuation of what I was talking about in my last blogpost, that it finally all begins with self-love.

I tried to do a brown-skin girl, and the result is not good. There is copic markers (that do not like my journal paper at all as blending was just impossible to achieve), fluid acrylic and panpastels just for the face :s. Next time, I will try with my NeoColors II, may be easier.
I like her anyway !

It is a huge breakthrough for me… it all begins with self-love.

Hello !

I hope you all had a Valentine’s day filled with Love.

Sometimes though, I feel like I don’t belong anywhere, that people do not like me (and/or what I create), that all is just a giant facade we are all part of. And the darkness begins to make her way inside, again.
With time, I realized that fighting it is vain. Tiring. But going with the flow with the will not to be drowned helps to keep this sensation short. For me, at least. It was a huge lesson I learned the hard way because I used to let the darkness win.

Acceptance, again and again. It IS hard, isn’t it ?

Do not feel guilty for having negative thoughts running through you, because your thoughts are not necessarily you. And it happens to all of us.

You will think you landed in Fluffy Bunny land but I do feel that Love, self-love especially, is the answer. Love yourself and people will love you. I thought it was just a nice quote before experiencing it myself. I don’t say this is easy, because this is not. When it comes to body image and how afraid I am of what people may think of me, it is a permanent struggle. But it does get better.

Painting and art journaling is my way of pulling out everything. And I am currently in needs of working on my Dark Side. So this is the first thing that came out, and it is also the fourth painting for our 52 paintings in 52 weeks challenge (i love this so much !).

I will post a picture as soon as I can, I am currently experiencing internet issue on my laptop, where all my stuff is located.

Here is the video:

I hope you enjoyed (it is not the best quality and I am sorry about that. Dealing with Vancouver cloudy weather).

Hello !

I know i didn’t post last week, so i am fixing it by sharing with you the two last paintings for this creative challenge.

I am not very very happy about them, but anyway it is part of the processus I guess. Learned a lot.

This is painting numero dos, titled I am the Light:

The two elephant-ish figures imposed themselves when I thought it was done. What are they doing here ? No idea.

The painting number 3 is titled I believe in possibilities:

I like this one better. I loved doodling the black clouds with india ink and a nib pen. And this new colour combo is really pleasing to my eyes !

They are both made on 11″x14″ canvas panel. So storing them is easier (way easier). And it is flat.

Look at what Jeanette creating during this creative challenge: Jeanette House
And Kira blogpost about our first week: The magic of Community

I wish you a wonderful week-end !