I guess we all have triggers that bring us back to some parts of our past that hurt. Still. Sometimes decades after. For me, it usually has to do with my relationships. The people who let me down, the people with whom I grew apart. Now and then, the hurt comes back right in my face and my heart swells and hurts and I can not breathe anymore. I wish I could leave it in the past, sometimes I think I did but then… nope.
And today was one of those days where stories of the past came back to haunt me. How I was abandonned. How I was told I was such the worst friend ever and will finish all alone. Things like this. I have changed since but sometimes I wonder… did I really ..?
I did nothing creative yesterday!
Don’t know if it helps, but I used to get those triggers all of the time! Maybe it’s just because life is getting longer, but it happens so much less now. I found that when an embarrassing memory happens repeatedly, I’d confess it to my other person (as an embarrassing story) and the memory kind of goes away after. Or if I tell someone I was mad at them for a long time, and they learn this, the anger goes away.
Or I could just be “chilling out” as I age, I don’t know LOL