Today's question is just happening at a perfect timing for me (thank you to the Universe for your silly synchronicities).
Danielle asks a question on her website and simply invite people to share their answers.
I quote her:
When you establish your purpose for money, you have a rudder to help guide your purchases, investments, donations, savings—all the things that you do with money.
You also motivate yourself to go get what you want the most.
So... What's my purpose for money ?
- Have everything I need/want to create artwork that heals me and inspires other.
- Own a beautiful home in Vancouver area. Spacious enough to fit us 4. To host family and friends. To work. Decorate it so it truly reflects who we are, as a family and a whole, and as individuals.
- Gift my close relatives and friends with what makes their heart sing to them.
- Buy organic on a regular basis.
- Travel and discover the World, even the close places. Visit family and friends that live so far away.
- Buy art that uplifts my Soul.
- Not to worry anymore to pay all our bills on time and still be comfortable.
- Have date nights with my husband once a month (= having a regular babysitter, paying for the restaurant etc)
- Make this big dream come true.
I am spending some much needed time in my art journal lately. Trying to process. Trying to prettyfy some stuff that happens.
Here is a page I made today (it was already dark, I may take a better picture *or not*):
On the other side of the spread is a sketch of a Nixie, Just a sketch... no shading, no color. And I did not know if I wanted the two pages to be separated or a spread. I still don't know actually.
to be mad
to be sad
to wanna give up sometimes
to feel like today is the worst one in your life
to have big hope and small dreams
to scream at the top of your lungs just to LET it GO
to smile when you feel like breaking down
to join your hands in a prayer to Whoever would just listen to you
to cry and ask for help
It's ok to have and express whatever emotion pass through you
(it just means you're alive)
If I am sharing this page with you, it's only because I feel like I was just the tool for the message. The channel so people could read these words. So people could know it is ok to feel whatever they feel.
I am struggling with my emotions right now. Not understanding them. Not being successful in processing them the way I wish I would. And I guess someone may feel the same somewhere and that this «permission slip» would reach someone who needed it.
Today is the already the third edition of this monthly section, Paving Our Path, I do with my friend Anu from My Courageous Life. We write our hopes and wishes for the month becoming. Just paving our path with good intentions.
What a month January has been ! We've seen my mom go back to France (where she lives) after having her by our sides for three very great months and honestly, it's been ten days or so now and it still feels empty without her...
While I am typing this, I am noticing something that is strange: I have no idea what I did write for my previous letters to the Universe. I can not tell you if what I wished for actually was granted or not (I will check though). This is what I call letting go (me the Queen Of I Keep everything tightly attached emotionally) ;-)
And from this month on, we have a pretty button to accompany our blogposts, yaaay !
I will add Anu's link as soon as I have it to share with you.
My heart feels heavy, and as February is the Month of the year where Love is all around, please fill me in; I promise to give back as much as I can, to anyone who needs it.
Please, help me to focus and inspire me to make the best class I could for 21 Secrets. I hope to help people heal by sharing my own process...
Give me the strength to go on my path of a better life for myself, better eating, exercising despite the fibro that seems to get harder and harder on me as the time passes. Help me to accept that pregnancies changed my body, and that what it looks like now after having given birth twice at now 26yo is not put into stone, I can still make it something I enjoy looking at in the mirror, a skin I feel good being inside of.
If you can send some clarity my way, some signs you know I will understand, feel free to do so. I am open to receive them now.
I feel lonely most of the time, a bit of company from someone more that 6 years old would be appreciated. Have you seen how I try to get off my butts to reach out ?
Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
As I was saying last year, I don't really like taking resolutions anymore. But I do like have goals to meet when the new year begins.
This is all over the cyberweb, this trand of finding/chosing a word to define your year to come. I see mine as a personal mantra, a line of conduct, sometimes I can turn to when I feel lost and don't really know in which direction to go.
This year, my mantra is a verb. I feel it like someone whispering or yelling it (kinda) at me when needed.
Expand my horizons. Expand my practice, spiritual and artistic. Expand Inner Worlds even further... and I don't know what yet.
I have this gut feeling that 2012 holds a lot of deep changes. Positive ones. With some waves because without them, the ride would not be as fun, right ? A turning point. Something that will shift the rest of my life, and of my family's.
I am currently working hard on a secret project. Something I've never done before. It has been whispered to me before, suggested by friends and strangers, and was downwright told it very insistently by Angels while my Angel Attunement. It's clear: I can't deny anymore that this is something I have to do and stop being afraid of the what if-s..... Too many coincidences pushing me this way.
This is the first step in following my mantra...
Do you have a word for 2012 ? What is it about ? Tell me all about it ;)
I know, I know... yet another post on the blogosphere about the end of the year. But I've been thinking a lot about this year already coming to an end, what I experienced (good and bad), about what I learned during the past twelve months.
It seems like yesterday I was making my plans for 2011. Did I meet all my goals (and there were not plenty of them!) ? No. I'm okay with it though. Because I learned A LOT this year.
Thanks to Goddess Leonie 2012 workbook and planner, I realize that I have made some big accomplishments (in my opinion):
I opened my Etsy shop, Inner Worlds, pushed firmly but kindly by my Fearless painting guru and friend Connie. It was a huge step for me. Showing the world i was actually there, asking for money in exchange of my art (i do still struggle with this sometimes, to be honest). And i made over 20 sales (may not seem like a good number for you, but I was sure not to sell a thing when I started!).
In february, I followed my gut and the idea of a personal project I simply called "365-selfportraits challenge", i started it in march. And it taught me to see me differently, to gain perspective on how I perceive myself. Even if i did not fulfill it, I so love self-portraiture that i may start it over in 2012. I want to do it for my girls and will ask them if they are interested.
I may do a more general 365-picture a year in 2012, I don't know yet...
I learned that there is growth in very bad health news. That despite what people think, positive thinking and Reiki do help. Even with cancer.
I am now a Practical Reiki Master and I am fully engaged in my healing learning process, helping anyone who kindly ask.
2011 taught me to trust deeply, without a doubt, that everything is okay and will get better and better.
I learned to give my friendship, sometimes to give it back. Despite how hurt I could have been. To give second chances. But there won't be third chances though.
I learned that miracles DO exist. Now, the missing pieces in my family tree are coming together. It feels good not to be a secret ghost anymore.
I followed my guts, asked the Universe, and received. This is how I went to Seattle, twice, to attend workshops in Teesha Moore's Artfest Annex. The first was from Teesha herself, this is how I finally met two online friends: Violette and Kym. Both were true life-changing experiences. I bloomed as an artist.
This painting was done during Flora Bowley's workshop and means a lot to me. I look at wondering how on Earth I could have painted it. Me. It is now hung on our wall, so I see it everytime I open the door.
Lots of my personal symbols. My heart is in there. Even with any Nixie lol
I just love the imperfections that fill it, me the perfectionist Virgo...
I am kinda back to writing, my first love. This book is still nesting in me, words wanting to go out but struggling because I keep them safely inside. I know I should not. And may 2012 be the year when they finally go out. For now, I am just sharing the stories my Nixies are whispering to me while I am giving birth to them.
2011 was tough. But eye and heart opening. And this is with a big THANK YOU that I let this year go to welcome 2012 in a few hours now.
I wish you all a wonderful new year.