Listening to the Whispers

(I apologize in advance if this blogpost makes no sense. I am in a brain fog kind of state today but really wanted to share this)

I am filled with new intentions. I check in with the ones I had at the beginning of the year, and felt like it was time for me to readjust and to celebrate the steps I did make forward.

I have an habit of thinking a lot, of internalize everything, decompose stuff so I understand every bits of it… and then, it stays at the thought form. It is hard for me to transform my Intentions into Actions. I have a new guiding word (that I add to the current one), and will share more about it very soon. I still need to let it sit before.

I am now taking Pixie Campbell’s online class called Visual Quest. It is focused on the creative process to listen to the Inner Voices, and using Shamanic journeying to tap into different Realms of consciousness to access to our Spirit Guides.

Totem animals have always been by my side, and Shamanism on my radar. I have several books about it, and I know it is time to dig deeper. And deeper.

Here is what Pixie says:

Sharing My Practice :: Honoring the Medicine
This class is a convergence of everything I know about spirit and art all rolled into one. Creative living and spiritual practice  represents all that’s mysterious, alive and juicy in every one of us. I’ve been painting for twenty-three years, and I’ve watched my practice become more reflective of my deep Self, and less of my ‘ideas’ about what would make a good painting. This freeing process is release, it’s color and spirit in motion, it’s a deep embrace of What Is, and an intentional honoring of life itself.

Because nothing happen by coincidence, I know this is the perfect timing for me and my new creative journey.

As I told you, I am deep into Soul Work, finding my way. And as Spirituality and Creativity are tightly intertwined, I am working on both.

I am currently struggling, but my dear friend Lynda suggested something to help me get out of my phunk: I write techniques and themes I want to try and play with, put that in a bowl and when I am in a idontknowwhattodoanymore moment, I just fish one and go from there.

But first, I will clear out my space. My Studio seems to crowded (if you ever came to my place, you know that I could open a store with all I’ve got). So I am planning to create some «goodie bags» with what I know I will never use, and put that for sale.

As I said yesterday, art is my major healing practice. With Love. It is only when I paint or play in my Art Journal that I finally stop being the exhausted mess I am otherwise.

But honestly, it’s been a week of «I am lost» and «I don’t know what to do anymore». It’s been a week of no painting or almost because the one I started was is getting nowhere and I got very very frustrated with it. I let my Mind take control instead of silencing it as I usually do.
So I meditate, I find myself reading again books I’ve forgotten, writing a lot, trying to decipher how to get where I know I will be. I know the destination but not the path to get there. Not yet. Not exactly. But I will find my way.