During approximately two weeks, I was deprived of Internet connection, television and landline phone… so despite the fact that boxes needed (and still do) to be unpacked, I really had TIME to create and journal.
It’s weird how it made me realize that we tend to take the excuse “I don’t have time to fill_with_what_suits_you” so often, whereas time is something we have to take, to tame. Finally, my day counted the same amount of hours; but without all this technology surrounding me (which I’m kind of addict, as a lot of people nowadays), it feels like I reconnected with something else.
In short… I was able to create a few pages in my self-centered Moleskine journal. I wanted to focus on a subject, that I mentally repeated over and over and over while creating on paper.
I generally use acrylic paints but was “called” by the cheap watersoluble paint we bought to our daughters (I think I’ll by a set for me… it costs less than $5 !). I love how the colours blend together. I preped the page by gessoing it first so the watercolour will really goes into the gesso and not into the pages themselves.
I let it dry and saw a cleared spot in the middle… and the shape of a face with hair protected by a helmet.
My page is REALLY simple but i absolutely didn’t think it, just let the juicy flow go out through my hand.
The breathing is made with Pebeo glitter, it’s a dimensional stuff i like to use here and there. It symbolizes the Breath of Life.
I am a Warrior of Light, even if I don’t know exactly (yet) my Personal Legend and my Life Purpose, I know I’ll discover it pretty soon if I pay attention to signs and details around me.
Accepting it does not mean I think I am better than you, because it’s absolutely not what I feel nor what I think.
My friend Alice recently introduced the term “Positive Seeker” and I LOVE LOVE it.
While walking to pick my girls from school yesterday, I thought of all the way I used to be, used to think, used to react, and how I am today. I was kind of impressed by the way I changed and evolved positively and yes, felt a little pride of it; even if the road is still long, even if questions have not all been answered at the moment… I am learning to be kind with myself, and patient.
Everything comes when it’s the better moment. I received a little message in the book I’m currently reading; book that has nothing really spiritual in it. The words I needed to hear when I needed them: perfect coincidence, perfect timing !