Yesterday morning was “one of these mornings”. I had a really bad night, it was raining, greyish, my Trollettes were excited and not listening and a lot of negative thoughts made me feel really low and sad…
I have the chance to have the possibility to talk with my husband via gtalk while he is at work, so we are constantly “together”. He cheered me up and found the right words and pffffsshshh it was gone and my mood was up again.
I am often wondering about Friendship, it’s an area in my life I am not really at ease with. I won’t tell all my life since childhood here but I’m kind of fearful and have difficulty to trust; but on the other hand when I like someone and think the person could really be my friend I tend to become blind… and fall down sooner or later.
The few real friends, those persons I consider to be like my family all live in France. So it’s hard even if we catch up almost everyday thanks to the internet.
Yesterday, I was thinking a lot about this area I miss in my life, having girlfriends to hang out with and so on… but as I said: I’m just blind in all ways possible. I have girlfriends 🙂 But i’m not a teenager anymore (thanks Goddess, because it was not the best years of my life AT ALL). I am a big Dreamer and I can be idealistic too (is it a word that exists in english ?).
Cheridoo (my husband; no it’s not his name lol) told me yesterday “your friends don’t have to be exactly like you on all subjects and hobbies and interests. you have this and that in common and that is what matters, doesn’t it ?”. And yes, it’s true. My friends do not have to have exactly the same hobbies that I love etc. And it’s what makes friendship beautiful and colourful…
After that pep talk with him, I felt the need to journal about it in my Moleskine. Because my Moleskine journal is dedicated to ME, even more than my Creative Journal that is most like a diary.
I am still searching my personal artistic style so I experiment different Trollettes (the girls I draw) face styles… The page has several background layers and you wouldn’t believe what it looked like at first 😉
After having finished this spread, I felt the sadness vanishing my Soul and my Heart, and felt relieved and lighter. It feels good now.
Making art can be a way to go beyond negativity and shift it positively 🙂
PS: this month of November is the “Art Every Day Month”, initiated by Leah of the blog Creative Everyday.
I try to create a little something everyday since November 1st but I am not able to show you what it is yet, because it may be a Christmas present 😉
By the way, this Journal Spread is my participation for November 9th 🙂