I should…

Hello !

First of all, thank you to those of you sending me messages asking where I am and if everything is okay. It warms my heart and honestly, I didn’t know I would be missed.

I am still around, but as I said I am facing a blog block. I don’t know why because I love my blog, I love my readers. But when it comes to sitting here and write, nothing. In my everyday life, I think often “oh wait, keep this in mind and blog about it” but then the excitement fades and goes away. So instead of forcing it, I’m doing something else.

I should write and share on my blog.

Thanks to the sessions with Jamie and the lovely ladies at our Circe’s Circle group, I realized that my focus has to be put on my book. It is something very important to me, something I work on for more than a year when I remembered a thing my best friend told me years ago: “you should make a book with all these texts you write about your life“. First, I laughed and answered “I’m in my early twenties, who would buy a book about the so called life of a young like me ? nobody for sure !” but the idea stayed and I started working on it. And with time, I noticed that i have to do it, for my own sanity and also because maybe people will relate to it and it would help them. And I want to make a difference, even if it’s a tiny little one.

But I should write everyday for my book.

I went to the hairdresser this week-end, and it’s absolutely not what I thought of, but the tears stayed inside and I eventually like it.

I miss my Art Journal. Dawn is helping us with NaNoJouMo by giving a prompt a day for all the month of November. I began and for no reason stopped.

I should use it as a starting point and do something, even little, everyday in my Art Journal.
And I should go on in my Sketchbook for the Sketchbook Project !
But I don’t.

It’s nearly Christmas and 2011 is approaching really fast ! I should be working on this big project I had in mind months ago and be making some cards to sell. But I don’t either.

I should record new art videos to share. I love making them.

So what do I do ? I nurture my soul and my body. I am totally and wholy turned inward myself. Maybe I am like the bear and the marmot and need to be silent and take care of myself during the cold months; I don’t know.

But I am still alive and doing well.
The end of the year is really tough for me, away from my mom, but I accept our choices of far away expatriation.
We are driving around, looking for areas that would suit our needs and desires for a home of our own. I visualize and wishcast and send intentions to the Universe.

I am grateful for my wonderful friends, in real life as well as online. You are precious and I cherish you deeply.
I am grateful for the love of my family and their support.
I am grateful to live in this city WE chose.
Thank you.