When new beginnings are scary

I am a Spiritual being. It is one thing that takes a lot of space in my Heart and is a the center of my creative life.

I recently had a reading with the amazing Nicole Bowman, who was suggested moons ago to me by the beautiful Carissa Paige. See, I usually have a reading once a year, around my birthday. Just to have an idea of what can be in store for me (I don’t see it as carved in stone and know we do influence by our choices, even the smallest ones). But it’s been a couple years now without this ritual.

I felt the urge, and as everything always happens when needed, Nicole had dropped her consultation price for the rest of July, I knew it was it, so I contacted her and made an appointment.

She is guided in the bestest way possible, and answered my questions, and more. I know I have a lot in store waiting for me to keep living in Fear. To drop it and go for it. The seeds are planted.

Today, I had this epiphany. It leaves me broken-hearted. And the tears are falling from my eyes as I write it, but I need to write it, to see it in words and then let it go to the World. I realized that in order to grow in my creative process, and creative life, I need, right now, to let my Nixies go.

I will take all the time it will take to photograph the paintings I created in the last 3 years, and for some that I never shared, and will put them for sale here and/or in the Etsy shop. They will find new loving homes. They don’t fit my closet anymore (literally and figuratively speaking).

It is scary. I feel naked and lost. But I know it is my next step. In my guts. And

I will keep painting, of course. And maybe the Nixies will keep appearing in my art no matter what. But for now, I will explore and expand my wings to new horizons.