My heart is pounding.
I feel like I can’t really breathe.
I am scared.
Scared of being a fraud.
Scared of being a total failure.
Scared of not being a *real* artist because I don’t exhibit/don’t get published/don’t sell much and so on.
Scared of not being seen for who I am.
Scared of being seen for exactly who I am.
Scared of being on the wrong path.
What to do now ?
I totally understand what you are going through. I have been at this “art” thing since 2007 and I feel like it is time to share what I know with the world, but fear is an ugly bitch! We can do this!! Stay strong! It would be worse if we never took chances and then lived with regret, right?
Just be brave and keep showing up. You are amazing, and you have so much to offer the world. I know these days are hard, and I have them too. But what you have to offer is so beautiful and raw and real, and we need more of that. XO.
Oh, sweet one. I have been there. Take good, reaaaally good care of yourself. Step away for a moment. Nourish yourself. Let yourself play. Trust, trust, trust that you are on YOUR path–which is exactly the right one! And remember you have kindred who SO understand (like me). You inspire me. Hug yourself for me. <3 <3
you are not alone, especially on days like today. what is it? let’s call upon our gem and herbal allies, our inner truth, our strength. we are enough, we are doing what needs to be done, we are doing all that we can and trust, trust, trust (with me) that all things in their own time. i KNOW i’m not yet ready for all the things to come…how do i know? not because the gremlins still exist (they always will) but because until recently, i wasn’t sticking to a schedule or holding myself accountable (as you know) and ain’t no one going to take my seriously, until i can show up and do what needs to be done, consistently! and so, each day, i continue to do what i can, and let it be enough. …move confidently in the direction of your dreams… even when it doesn’t look like we think it should 😉