I know, I am the first to say that you do not *need* a biological parent as long as you have a parental figure (this is an entire debate, not my point here) but today I really needed my Mom and so I called her.
Even though since she moved a few months ago it is more complicated because no landline anymore (she had free unlimited calling to Canada, and was really useful) , and also a more than wonky internet service… leaving us very frustrated. But I had a good cry, asked questions that had been on my mind (even if I know her answers might not been objective because I am her girl).
We are in the process of doing what we can to have my Mom live with us but one step at a time. We need her, and I want to believe she does needs us as well (I am an only child on her side).
I miss her. greatly. but I am thankful that we are still close despite the distance and the entire ocean and entire continent between us.
Some days are easier than others. I am pretty good at filling the holes. And I am proud of myself for not running to the Nutella jar, no matter how strong the call can be (we all have our coping mechanism of choice).
Not much more happened today… hopefully tomorrow will be smoother.
thank you so much for watching and for those who take the time to leave me a word, publicly or via email, it touches me deeply.
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