I have to confess something: I am currently facing a huge block on my creative road. Well, this is not a secret either. Between going back to college for two semesters, work, family… moving again across Canada back to where we belong… I had to make difficult choices and one of them was to accept that I could not be in my Studio and do something there every single day. Plus, we downsized quite a lot so my current Studio space serves as the guest room as well. Meaning, there’s a bed in there taking an entire wall space.
This is also because we moved across the country that I had no other choice: to face the truth. Truth is subjective though, and right now the itch in my finger to grab a paintbrush is back. BUT when I try, nothing comes up. Nothing comes to the surface. I have still so many stories to tell, and I know the time will come.
I still have creative projects I want to birth, so this is not me giving up on painting. It’s something I need too much anyway.
When the fingers become itchy again
I do not know about you, but I notice that a lot of resistance is happening. Like my fingers want to create. They want to make something with paint and all the good stuff. But then, my brain is putting a gigantic stop sign right there…
What’s up with that bullshit?! I usually listen more to my heart and intuition than I listen to the actual thoughts but this past year? A complete reversal. And you know what? that sucks!
I exhaust myself, actually. I always find an excuse not to make art. “I need to clear my table” “I can’t paint with my canvas vertically standing up against a wall anymore.” “I do not even know where to begin…“
So you know what? I went to Michaels yesterday, invested in a new table easel that will fit a canvas up to 34″. Holding myself accountable: I will allow my Soul to gain confidence again. I will paint even though no masterpiece will be created. I will use my art journal to process because it makes sense to me. Nobody has to see what’s coming through. I can share only what I want to share (this is a big one in my world… this need to share everything).
I’m so glad you got yourself that easel!
Thank you <3
Nolwenn recently posted…Never give up on your painting
I always love and try to bear this idea in mind “Nobody needs to see”, to remove this constant audience which actually only exists on my damn phone, The other side of the coin, is that sometimes I need to he witnessed too 🙃 I know you will come through
I agree that some art (both art journal pages or paintings) just feel like they NEED to be shared. But not all of them as I used to. Because I think I was looking for approval and recognition… now, I just want to make it.
Yay for taking care of your needs.
Doing my best not to go back/stay in my negative ways.
When I wanted to paint on big paper (poster board paper, like they use for school projects) I bought a cheap vinyl tablecloth and tacked it to the wall first, then tacked the paper up on top of that so that I wouldn’t mess up the wall I was using as my easel.
It’s a thought to try if you needed or wanted to.
I totally get the itchy fingers wanting to create and the head getting in the way.
So much has changed in this last year hasn’t it? I have felt less like sharing on social when I expected to want to share more, but no one needs to see everything right. I am currently telling myself that my table also needs to be cleared lol. Happy Blogging! Elle/EOTC xx
that mental block is so hard to overcome, isn’t it? give yourself grace … it will all return. creating anything is better than shoving all your joy and talent back into a drawer.
Exactly right, only share what you feel comfortable with, the world doesn’t need to see everything.
Good luck with the easel and the journal…
I find that sometimes tidying up takes precedence over art!