Inner Voices
24Feb/147

What I want

My husband and my older daughter are both very indecisive person. It can be quite annoying when they are unable to make a decision about simple things.
On the contrary, I am one who usually knows pretty well what I want, and my main is issue is finding the ways to get there *frustration is here again*.

As I type those words I am listening to Tam (aka Willowing) and Claudine Helmuth, they did an interview for Life Book. And it helps me to redefine what I want. Claudine suggests to start by making a list of what you love, and the reason(s) why. But for today, I really need to make a clear list of what I want, and doing it here for your eyes will help me feel accountable.

On this day,

  • I want to Cultivate the Happy (if you’re interested, I’ll write a more detailed blogpost about what this means to me).
  • I want surround myself with Joy.
  • I want touch people with my art and its messages.
  • I want record, write and put my first online class, Soul Songs, together so it is available at the beginning of Spring this year.
  • I want sell more original paintings than prints of it.
  • I want to tell my stories. In any way that comes to me.
  • I want to spend more quality time with my girls.
  • I want to get this forearm tattoo designed and inked so badly.
  • I want to instore date nights in our schedule, so we can spend time as a couple, not just parents.
  • I want to create create create. To expand the area of what I think I can do.
  • I want to live in the Light.
  • I want to learn again the power of gemstones. of plants. and use them.
  • I want to be part of a Design Team for a brand I love, and showcase what I do with their products.
  • I want to have the funds for signing up to Athena’s (aka The Sage Goddess) Pentacle membership.
  • I want to send a package to Somerset Studio in hope to be published.
  • I want to find my way back into loving my body for what it is (lost 10kgs/22lbs) in the past year, but still have 7kg/15 lbs more to go).
  • I want to see Mindy Lacefield, Danielle Daniel and Lynda to hug them and spend time with them. And Valeri. And not forgetting my oversea friend Micki Wilde *I’ll come to you, my Hermit friend*
  • I want to keep doing my Project Life album. To document what are everyday life looks like, the good and the bad. I want to do an album just about me, too. So my kids will know who I am/was.
  • I want to surround myself with positivity, even if the Darkness that inhabits me sometimes has its use, too.
  • I want to plan our trip back to France next year to celebrate milestones.
  • I want purple hair. Maybe do some braids again.
  • I want to learn the ukulele and keyboard.
  • I want to be Happy.

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(me this morning, wearing my Sunflower hat from Plants vs Zombie, under the snow)

7Feb/142

Gratitude Friday 02/07/2014, thank you health.

«Thank You» Gratitude Friday is a weekly ritual I started in order to focus on all the small and big positive things that happened during my week. I invite you to join me, you'll see how much being thankful can change your life. If you want to know more about it, read my introduction post.

Welcome Friday !

Not sure there is a lot to say about this week. Ups. Downs. Repeat. Breathe in between (sometimes).

I’m typing while both my girls are picking at each others, my husband is on whatever screen of his it is, and I try to accept it is our life right at this moment and to be okay with it because I can change myself but not others. Big lesson indeed.

This week, I am thankful for:

  • Sunshine when I go outside. Despite the freaking cold of this week, it’s always welcome.
  • Art that keeps me sane.
  • Good books (I finished Eleanor & Park and I’m back in The Mortal Instruments series with City Of Fallen Angels).
  • Morning walks to start the day.
  • KindredSisters, who listen to me vent without judging for one seconds.
  • Goog snailmail.
  • Mom arrives in less than a month now (which freaks me out as her room is far from being ready).
  • Doctors, dentists.
  • Writing to vent it all away.
  • Songs, from my past, from my present.
  • My husband
  • My daughter Koala’s creativity.

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    13Dec/130

    Gratitude Friday 13/12/2013, thank you Relativity

    «Thank You» Gratitude Friday is a weekly ritual I started in order to focus on all the small and big positive things that happened during my week. I invite you to join me, you'll see how much being thankful can change your life. If you want to know more about it, read my introduction post.

    Hello hello !

    Well… for once, I am writing a bit in advance so I am sure you have a nice read with your morning coffee (or you are like me and browse your emails and reader before you even fully open both eyes *working on it guys. working on it*). See, I am in bed. Avoiding the conflicts coming from downstairs, trying to fill myself with why we can be such a great fit as a family most of the time but others as tonight, I wonder why we chose each others… I tried compassion, and understanding. I tried to guide my youngest daughter through an easy visualization with a rose quartz. But I failed. And we are now without a bedtime story, she is pissed, her father his pissed, I am sad, and her sister just does not really understand. So yea, I am taking the time in the chaos to still my mind and soothe my heart, counting my blessings instead of focusing on this precise event.

    This week, I am thankful for:

    • The Love package from my Sugababe the shiny Kelly Barton.
    • The messaging/texting/emailing with my TrueSisters.
    • The phone call from my big bro, just to tell me my first «I told you so», good laugh.
    • My Husband, best friend of a decade today. 10.
    • The cuddles.
    • The hot bath with my book and some music.
    • Speaking of music, I am loving the band Imagine Dragons right now.
    • Shipping some care packages. Some «I am glad you are in my life» goodies. Planning on more.
    • Knowing I will have a gift or two under the tree.
    • Creating a project with both girls for Mindy’s next class, Wild Surrender.
    • Generosity.
    • The snow we had *please, give me some more*.
    • The amazing DT I am a part of for Lindy Stamp Gang.

    I know it’s not such a wonderful time of year for everyone, for some reasons painful memories often tag along Christmas. I hope you know you are heard, and that the practice of Gratitude (which does not mean ignoring the negativity, but balancing it and focusing on its contrepart) can help you overcoming it.

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      22Nov/131

      Gratitude Friday 11/21/2013, thank you perspective

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      I’m happy it’s Friday ! This week did not turn out how I expected it to… I missed two steps in thr stairs while heading to the Studio and injured my knee. I am writing from my bed. I am in pain, yes, feeling useless, yes, but it is an experience that forces me to count my blessings even more.

      This week, I am thankful for:

      • Not having broken any bone.
      • Not having broken my latpop in the fall (which I was holding), and that it’s still working properly.
      • My husband who rushed from work and was able to work from home for a day.
      • My neighbor who came right away when I called her, crying.
      • Parenthood and other tv shows.
      • Seeing the progress Koala is showing with her reading skills.
      • Homemade chocolate chip cookies (finally found a recipe the 4 of us like !).
      • The possibility to buy/find great (Christmas/birthday/anniversary) gifts for my loved ones.
      • Becky Higgins’ free live class, still on today for the last day (but it is part of why I fell).
      • Cooking in advance at the beginning of the week… as if I knew somehow.
      • Friends. Family. «I love you-s»
      • Danielle Daniel’s «7 Artists 7 Totems 7 Stories» project. Her book. Her Light.
      • Voltaren cream.
      • Good book (I am reading «City of Ashes» right now, by Cassandra Clare).

      It’s really the little things that, put together, makes it all a better week than if I had focused too long on the pity party that was crawling on the back of my mind.

      What’s in your Gratitude Bucket this week ?

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        19Nov/131

        I want to remember

        (inspired by Liz Lamoreux).

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        On this day…

        I want to remember the joy of baking French Toasts for the family, the way Mom used to make some for me when I was a kid. The «hmmm this is so good» from the girls, and from Chéridoo. The pleasure of making something instead of going for the easy way.

        I want to remember that first, there was my husband and I as a couple, then we created a family. I want to remember the joy of staying a bit longer than usual in bed on a weekend, just to cuddle with that part of my Soul living in his body. The whispers. The «I love you-s».

        I want to remember the joy the girls have when they play together. This is when I am happy we decided to have two babies, close in age.

        I want to remember that it’s okay not to work every single day or every single hour I am supposed to.

        I want to remember the joy of being inside when it is pouring rain outside. Doing board games, watching a movie, and baking some sweet treats as a family. Remember that I do love the sound of the drops on our roof.

        I want to remember that everything will come to me once ripe, that pushing it too much will just slow things down.

        I want to remember that sometimes, all you can do is try your best. And it’s okay.

        I want to remember that no matter what, Love will win.

        What do you want to remember today ?

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