It was tikleing my fingers for some time now to create an self-portrait (other that a photography one). A real one. I mean real because all the Trollettes (these girls I draw) are a part of me, of my personality, at a precise time of my life. But I wanted to create something that gives an overview of who I am.
Everytime I thought of this self-portrait I wanted to create, Fear came by my side, telling me “and what if what you find inside you is awful ?”; that is why I put this project apart for a while.
YOU know who you are, and only you. People can tell you, describe you, they may be true… or not. You have the power to let these adjective flow by you as they come; you know they’re here but it does not touch you deeply.
I was told I am mean, selfish, self-centered, ugly, fat, idiot, that I will finish my life alone without any friend or lover by my side… and it’s just a sample of what people could have said to me over the past ten years. For some, it was true at a precise time of my life but it took me years to realize that it was no longer applicable.
Take some time to think about it: what are this labels that describe you ? Who gave it to you ? Do they express your Truth ?
Everyone has its story. Sometimes, we don’t want to face facts, or emotions that lie inside of us. We can chose the way we want to tell this story that is our: concentrate on its positive side, even if you don’t forget the rocks on the road you chose to focus on all tha wonders, happy moment and meets that were life-changing; or to tell what went wrong over and over again.
Don’t be ashamed of who you know you are. If you don’t like one of your characteristic, you can always work on it to make it shift and suit what you would like to be.
We are constantly looking for what people want us to be like, and we are glued to this like a sticky bubblegum stuck to the back of a shoe. We can’t deny others’ opinion, but we have the power to refuse to take it for absolute truth if we don’t feel it’s right.
My selfportrait is absolutely non-perfect, especially the face. My husband suggested me to let it in black & white, and I liked it like that so I listened to him; I love the contrast with the colourful background. The eyes are ugly, the shading is bad too (it’s my big weak point)… But I love what I created !
Be Proud but in the right way.
Be You.
And I joined the FormSpring craziness… so if you have any question for me , don’t be shy and ask it there (you can ask anonymously if you prefer): just click here.
Last but not least, the bonus song: India Arie- Video. I listen to it when I need to be reminded of who I am inside, and that I am perfect as I am.