I have to confess something: I am currently facing a huge block on my creative road. Well, this is not a secret either. Between going back to college for two semesters, work, family… moving again across Canada back to where we belong… I had to make difficult choices and one of them was to accept that I could not be in my Studio and do something there every single day. Plus, we downsized quite a lot so my current Studio space serves as the guest room as well. Meaning, there’s a bed in there taking an entire wall space.
This is also because we moved across the country that I had no other choice: to face the truth. Truth is subjective though, and right now the itch in my finger to grab a paintbrush is back. BUT when I try, nothing comes up. Nothing comes to the surface. I have still so many stories to tell, and I know the time will come.
I still have creative projects I want to birth, so this is not me giving up on painting. It’s something I need too much anyway.
When the fingers become itchy again
I do not know about you, but I notice that a lot of resistance is happening. Like my fingers want to create. They want to make something with paint and all the good stuff. But then, my brain is putting a gigantic stop sign right there…
What’s up with that bullshit?! I usually listen more to my heart and intuition than I listen to the actual thoughts but this past year? A complete reversal. And you know what? that sucks!
I exhaust myself, actually. I always find an excuse not to make art. “I need to clear my table” “I can’t paint with my canvas vertically standing up against a wall anymore.” “I do not even know where to begin…“
So you know what? I went to Michaels yesterday, invested in a new table easel that will fit a canvas up to 34″. Holding myself accountable: I will allow my Soul to gain confidence again. I will paint even though no masterpiece will be created. I will use my art journal to process because it makes sense to me. Nobody has to see what’s coming through. I can share only what I want to share (this is a big one in my world… this need to share everything).