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Welcome to this new Gratitude Friday! Feel free to share with me your (partial or full) gratitude moments in the comments; that way I can hold joy for you ✿ (you know that makes me happy to make you happy).

This week has been weird. I feel both full and empty at the same time. Paradoxical? Probably. Spooky season is definitely upon us here: our neighbourhood is decorated for Halloween. I make food that is more filling. Hoodies and sweaters are worn on a daily basis now. I am planning our meal to celebrate Samhain, which will be here early enough. I will certainly film some of it for my Nova’s Kitchen youtube channel.

This week, I am thankful for:

This week’s soundtrack:

Welcome to this new Gratitude Friday! Feel free to share with me your (partial or full) gratitude moments in the comments; that way I can hold joy for you ✿ (you know that makes me happy to make you happy).

This week has been good. And to me, it says a lot. I want to remember all the things, small and big, that create these feelings of being content. Content with myself. Content with my life. I use to see contentment as a negative feeling. Why? Probably because I associated this with giving up.

I am doing my best to use this push from Effy to blog every day this month.
September is my birthday month and for once, I am tackling it differently.
I really hope you’ll find nuggets of interesting things in my words and in what I share. I love reading your comments.
Thank you for being here.

Welcome to this new Gratitude Friday! Feel free to share with me your (partial or full) gratitude moments in the comments; that way I can hold joy for you ✿ (you know that makes me happy to make you happy).

I know I have been absent almost everywhere online. These past couple of months have been really difficult on a personal level. I usually deal by simply going silent… so this is exactly what I’ve done.
I have however been reading others 🙂 I know that silence is not the way to go, but this is what I know best and at least, this is not a hurtful coping mechanism.

Today, I am grateful for:

• Having scored tickets to see the Imax Halsey’s movie If I can’t have love, I want power.
• Having health insurance that covers treatments like acupuncture and naturopathy.
• Friends, old and new.
• The hummingbirds paying a visit to my flowers on a regular basis.
• Seeing the positive changes in one of my closest loved one.
• My oldest daughter finally being in Summer break after having to attend a math class at summer school.
• New music from artists I love (hello Billie Eilish and soon Halsey’s new album).
• Being able to rest when I need to (I won’t lie: this is still a struggle not to feel lazy).
• My husband who surprised me by ordering the Insta360 Go2 camera! I can’t wait to experiment and have fun with it 🙂
• Nourishment, whatever form it takes.
• Books, carving daily time to get lost in stories.

What about you? I invite you to share what you’re currently grateful for in the comments. There is power in sharing and holding space for each other.

I am currently writing from a small Air BnB apartment¹ we are renting in Langley, BC until we have the keys to our new home (tomorrow, April 3rd!). This is a one-bedroom, we are four people plus a dog. Let me tell you: this is an everyday challenge to stay sane. And to study/attend my college Zoom classes while my husband is having meeting after meeting in the same room. We are both still working in Montreal’s timezone. It means we get up almost every morning around 5 am. Days seem to last longer than they actually do.

I am however very grateful to be back in British Columbia. For years now, I have been pondering the notion of “home”. I’ve always had this deep gut sense of being inadequate everywhere I have lived. But this is a story for another day.

Exhaustion is real…

Last year, I decided to finally take the plunge and I found a great therapist. I uncovered a lot about myself during these 9 months. I don’t regret it, even though facing some stuff I probably would have been okay with keeping buried. Our main goal was to work on my anxiety, finding its root to find the best coping mechanism-s possible for me. She then advised me to take one day at a time, one breath at a time and to “just survive today, tomorrow is not there yet“. So this is where I am right now, surviving one day at a time; accepting that nothing can/has to be perfect (at least not on the first try anyway).
My body and my soul are exhausted but I keep moving.

I have a series of questions due tomorrow regarding the movie Kinsey, by Bill Condon. This is for my philosophy class in which we focus on the concept of the Human Being. This movie is our link to the Freud concept of the human being. Days of reading about Kinsey and his sexual researches get me thinking too much… Good thing I find this fascinating. This second half of the winter semester is filled with huge group projects, exams and studies. If you can keep me in your thoughts tomorrow (Thursday, April 8th), I have another big exam in art history, regarding the Renaissance period, at 5 am my time. It’s way too early for my system to function properly on writing an essay about Renaissance art…

I know my body is yelling because I am pushing but I do feel like I do not have the luxury to slow anything down at the moment. My teenage daughters are adjusting to this comeback. My husband and I are still moving our stuff from the storage unit we are renting. The goal is: this home will be 300% a representation of who we are, for once; both individually and as a family.

1. I started this about ten days ago. I am now in our home 🙂